A little more time...maybe :)

So it's been quite awhile since I've sit down and posted...Things have been pretty busy around here lately..At the end of August Paul's aunt passed away from lung cancer, as I always do I tried to take care of every ones needs. Also I've been trying to help my mom out who is sick with her own problems, we've made a few trips to Kansas City for her to see the doctor.. For once it's wasn't Zach and Allie! I'm so excited for Zachery and Allie, they started school last week, and seem to be liking it really well. Our mornings are even crazier, I have to get Allie up at 6 and get her dressed and fed before the bus comes at 7:30, after I get her on the bus I get Zachery up and dressed and fed before the bus comes back to get him at 10:00, so from then till noon I have no kids, they bring Allie back home at noon, and then Zachery gets back about 2:30. I find my self not knowing really what to do. I'm working on something to do beside clean! So back to the first day of school, of course I got tears the firs day putting them on the bus. This is the first time either of them have rode the bus. Poor little Allie I felt so bad, I put her on the bus and when I started buckling the car seat, her face was so scared looking, like mommy what are you doing and why are you leaving me, it made me have a lump in my stomach to put my little girl on the bus and watch it drive away:( Zachery was pretty clam with it, like see ya mom I'm a big boy. The first day when they brought him home he was out like a light on the bus. Today Allie was so excited we were singing Allie is going to school and she was clapping and singing, it was so cute. They said that she clapped all the way to school. And my little man Zachery. oh today he melted my heart, when the bus pulled up I was standing outside, waiting for him and, he seen me out the window, and smiled really big and started signing mom over and over again, when I got on the bus and he seen me, he was so excited, like he wanted to tell me all about it. Oh my babies are not babies anymore, they are growing up on me so fast. I was sitting and thinking the other day that Zachery will be 5 in January. Well since I could sit here and go on and on, have a lot to say..But as I was saying I'm hoping to have a little more time to keep up on the blog, I haven't forgot about it or anyone that we follow or who follows us..

Time Needed!

I for the life of me can not keep up.. The kids are keeping me on my toes 24/7 i can't turn my back on them or sit down for a few, there is always something to be done here cleaning laundry or just chaing them room to room. man Zachery is getting so fast at rolling, I wish he would just stand that boy thinks that it is so funny to stand that he gets to laughing so hard and just plops down, and he is so heavy that I can't stand him very long..and as for miss Allie, she watched her brother and learns from him. I feel like we have so many appts to catch up on, man if we make them all and go to all of them needed, we mise well just stay up there I've thought about calling a social worker and saying ok we need these put us in the RMH and make them all for one week, I feel kinda like I have been slacking on alot latley, it seems there is not enough time for anything..on that note I did it I have called in for some nursing!!! They are going to be sitting up a interview..I tell you I think i have got so caught up in depression from not getting out of the house much I' feel like breaking some days...with school getting ready to start and nursing I hope it will get better..I just feel almost like I will make the kids think that I don't love them..gosh I do this all the time I feel so guilty.. I have to over come this guilty feeling and I don't know where to begin...any suggestions??? Oh I have to tell you my little man just amazes me he is so loving to me and it melts my heart..I put my finger to my mouth today and said shhh and he put his finger to his mouth and smiled real big at me and I take my and under my chin and say hey bubbby and he takes his fist and hits his chin, he also does that for mom, it's so cute I try to catch alot on video but when the kids see i have it they don't do anything it's like they knw I'm trying to catch them doing things...well thats all for tonight Zach's feeding pump is beeping and he just woke up ahhh it's gonna be a late night with him, awake at 9 so I'll try to keep on top of posting I promise

Sorry!!!

Sorry it has been so long since I have wrote, things have been so crazy and I'm not sure when they will get back on track...So the kids have been great, knock on wood! They are still little stinkers. The other kids will start school tomorrow, and Zach and Allie start September 8th, so a few more weeks. I have no clue where this summer went, it's over and I'm not ready for the cold weather to begin. So back to the kids..they seem to amaze me everyday, Zachery the little things that he is responding to me brings tears to my eyes, like the other day we were in dollar general and he was sitting in the cart and he looked a little tired, so i said bubby you ready for a nap and he shook his head no and smiled, needless to say that he went to sleep as soon as we got home. The next day I was getting ready to change his diaper and I said did you pee your pants you need me to change you, and he nodded yes and laid down for me to change him, It's so crazy how the little things make you so excited!! oh I was away for 4 days wow, I was in Tulsa OK, Paul's aunt is in the Cancer Treatment Center there and she was not doing so well so I took his mom to see her, and I was so proud I never got lost on the way there or back:) n e ways, Paul had the kids, the first time EVER I have never been away and he had them alone, no mom to turn to cause she was with me, my mom was out of town..and oh boy did he get a reality check, he was calling non stop wanting to know when I was coming home and how to do this and that, and where this although he will NOT admit to me but all his friends say he said that he understand why i get so stressed, but it hasn't changed him much, back to the kids, when I got home it seemed that they had grown 10times on me, bubby was so happy to see me he was signing mom mom mom, and Allie well I think she had become daddys girl but it didn't take her long to cry for mommy! Not really much else new with us still the same, for know and I'm going to try to get some pictures posted and try to keep on top of blogging

Happy 4th Of July

Hope eveyone has a safe and Happy 4th..Not much new with the kids, I don't remember if I posted about Allie also loosing a tooth, yep they are both one tooth less..she actually kocked hers out with he tooth brush..anyways I'm stressed about today, oh so many people will be at my house..Paul's wonderful idea!! oh yea me and my mom went and got tattoos yesterday..I felt kinda wierd I took my kids with me but, the guy is Paul's cousin, and I was kinda trippin on it and he was like whats the big deal...so I guess i should get over it!:) the tattoos mean "faith" the chineese symbol of faith..we all have to have "faith" And once again..KEEP praying for Tucker to get stronger and for his family. Have a great day everyone

It's Been Awhile

Sorry that it has been awhile since I have posted..anyways well we have another lost tooth..no not Zachery it's Allie..long story short...I was brushing her teeth and well I turned around to suction Zachery and let her keep the toothbrush and well she had it in her mouth and went face down into the highchair tray and pushed it all the way strait out and up into her gums..it's hard to explain, anyways i rushed her to the E.R and they set us up with a dentist, because they didn't know if they could leave it or pull it out..well the dentist said it had to be pulled, so they reached up and popped it out! she yelled for a few, and then was over it, I'll have to post some pictures of her later today, Also PLEASE PRAY for little Tucker, and his family, Tucker had his whole heart repair, and the little guy really needs prays for his recovery, also pray for his mommy, give her the strength to stay strong, and hang in there....Were thinking of you Karen!!
Nothing new has really been going on around here except were just a few teeth short, wow never would of thought at age 3 and 4 they would be loosing teeth crazy

New Pictures

ok here is the pictures of mister Zachery..one tooth less :)

What a Day!!

Well the day started out crappy..we all woke up late Emma missed the bus, Allie was grouchy ALL day non stop screaming! Then after the girls got out of school they immediately started fighting and by this time I was on the edge, screaming kids..to top it all of i forgot that the lady from first steps was stopping by to pick up the kid cart,( we donated Zachery's old one to a family) and trying to cook dinner..After all was settling down, no one can guess what Allie and Zachery did today?? any guesses?? well, I had to give all an enema..I think that is why she was so grouchy. It didn't work so I decided to put her on the toilet well miss Allie pooped on the toilet for the very first time, we sang the poopy song and away she went..kinda grouse but I was excited for her. Well after that I gave Paul a hair but ( I'm not sure why he trusted me:) hehe I wanted to make a big bald spot, but i didn't) anyways Paul got in the shower and I was sitting on the couch and Zachery was all over the place..I had to get that boy out of his room like 100 times today, not that he can't be in there he likes to play with all the cords, and get into stuff I can't keep up with him..back to the story. he was sitting by the chair and I seen that he kinda bumped his face on the chair, he kinda made a pucker face for a few minutes and I went over to him and all of a sudden blood came pouring out of his mouth I picked him up and ran with him to the bathroom, i was like Paul Zachery is bleeding, i thought maybe he busted his mouth, lip, NO his BOTTOM TOOTH was MISSING!!!!! I was like oh my god did he swallow it what the heck, well I found this perfect little tooth on the floor beside the chair.I'll have to post a pic tomorrow of it, it looks like a puzzle piece just took out of his mouth! ohh I was freaking out, Paul was like it's a tooth. no he is only 4 he is not suppose to loose teeth, I don't know if it was loose, and he bumped it or what it's not broken off or anything it;s just this perfect little tooth. He looks so funny without a tooth, he is going to be toothless prolly for a couple years. I need to make a dentist app ASAP. I was told we don't have any dentist locally that does kids, I don't know I Know Mercy does but I was also told it takes at least 3 months for an Appt. so I have to make some call tomorrow.